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20. August 2008 by Big Nizm.
An interesting topic.. a lot of folk i have been blessed to know.
Close friends, frat brothers, line brothers.. musical associates, business associates and the like.. I find myself looking at the former relic of self. Seeing as that I define myself pre my mother’s passing and post.. I look and see how life-changing events reveal self to self.
Over time this event was the biggest cross i had to bare and from it I am learning what it is.
However after laying on someone’s couch and telling him why i though i was a couple of sandwiches short of picnic a few years ago i began a long journey of introspection and walking into the deep recesses of my mind to see where I have come from.
Indeed a dark place but blessed
to be under 30 I have had a busy life
A black male into architecture!
A lyricist
Once a father..those who know me know the implications of that
A mentor/mentee
and many things….
Post trauma
Once a father….
An Alpha
A mentor
A skater
A man
amidst this travel it is key to see past points again to reflect. All this and more compose the artist Nizm who in the end is another part of me.
Though I wrestle with the person that was once me say Summer of 2003 vs the Nizm of now has the previous was more optimistic I have learned that it is no need regretting as we are forged to be come what we are destined.. even if WE ourselves question it.
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